Do you remember when I told you that you make me sick? When I prayed and I took care not to scream with your knuckles cracked lips?
When we went in the countryside near the prison and I was afraid of everything ... the noise of the fireflies, clothes falling? When
vomited for hours and my stomach acid was love, there was sex, there was amazement and awareness, you were there? What if you had asked me what I wanted to do is sleep and the light of your basement blinded me and I murmured something like a child when I woke up at my aunt's house to take me to bed.
Do you remember when I said that everything was fine, and I understand that you expected? It was not true because I wanted to swim a fucking hive and fill wounds, disfiguring your face with poison and destroy my room that I had never heard me.
Do you remember how you said that did not respect your decisions? I gotta be like a dog in the back, eating the flowers you gave me for birthdays and that you were falling from the pockets of pants while kneeling in front of you made me go to the American bases with a smile. And my servility that made me suck him slapped with wet hands of active ingredient: alprazolam and beer on offer, while you on the phone you said that no one forced me to do it but if you do not get excited I called and ended that I was leaving and I was not good, because you had to leave you be.
Do you remember when we fight in without telling me ended and that I was not to be like and I will say straight away that I had to drink so we went instead to go with the car between those bushes? What time do not have them cut and you can no longer hide and smoke and fuck are not going well, but to bring the dog to pee is the joy of the citizens. And the cops will be happy, which will no longer stand in the parking lot and knocked out the windows steamed up and to
pretend to count the syringes and used condoms fantasize about.
Do you remember when in the room seemed to be on different planets? When there was a wall between your bed, where I spent the day pretending to read, and your desk, where you would sit her back to me and forget to me? That would have destroyed the wall with your head if only I had not been afraid to piss blood, not so much as to bring out those little truth from the rubble, then I would be forced to do it once broke through the wall and seeing you once again from behind , again without me. And I should probably already tell from the silences and absences, but when I look out a window I refuse to see only buildings and streets and you have always known.
Do you remember when we went months without making love? I looked at him and seeking an explanation, I also searched in my bowels, removing skin and flesh little by little with a spoon. And I would not find anything. Because you said you were and I was really a bitch to think it was me but maybe it makes you think that when I try with my hand to bring a wild cat he is afraid of me and walks away. And while you spit sentences I lost
syrup to drink from his eyes and let you know that I understood, but you did not understand.
Remember him? Why me years later I still remember well preserved and throw these pictures in my bathtub with the cables of our computers.
When we went in the countryside near the prison and I was afraid of everything ... the noise of the fireflies, clothes falling? When
vomited for hours and my stomach acid was love, there was sex, there was amazement and awareness, you were there? What if you had asked me what I wanted to do is sleep and the light of your basement blinded me and I murmured something like a child when I woke up at my aunt's house to take me to bed.
Do you remember when I said that everything was fine, and I understand that you expected? It was not true because I wanted to swim a fucking hive and fill wounds, disfiguring your face with poison and destroy my room that I had never heard me.
Do you remember how you said that did not respect your decisions? I gotta be like a dog in the back, eating the flowers you gave me for birthdays and that you were falling from the pockets of pants while kneeling in front of you made me go to the American bases with a smile. And my servility that made me suck him slapped with wet hands of active ingredient: alprazolam and beer on offer, while you on the phone you said that no one forced me to do it but if you do not get excited I called and ended that I was leaving and I was not good, because you had to leave you be.
Do you remember when we fight in without telling me ended and that I was not to be like and I will say straight away that I had to drink so we went instead to go with the car between those bushes? What time do not have them cut and you can no longer hide and smoke and fuck are not going well, but to bring the dog to pee is the joy of the citizens. And the cops will be happy, which will no longer stand in the parking lot and knocked out the windows steamed up and to
pretend to count the syringes and used condoms fantasize about.
Do you remember when in the room seemed to be on different planets? When there was a wall between your bed, where I spent the day pretending to read, and your desk, where you would sit her back to me and forget to me? That would have destroyed the wall with your head if only I had not been afraid to piss blood, not so much as to bring out those little truth from the rubble, then I would be forced to do it once broke through the wall and seeing you once again from behind , again without me. And I should probably already tell from the silences and absences, but when I look out a window I refuse to see only buildings and streets and you have always known.
Do you remember when we went months without making love? I looked at him and seeking an explanation, I also searched in my bowels, removing skin and flesh little by little with a spoon. And I would not find anything. Because you said you were and I was really a bitch to think it was me but maybe it makes you think that when I try with my hand to bring a wild cat he is afraid of me and walks away. And while you spit sentences I lost
syrup to drink from his eyes and let you know that I understood, but you did not understand.
Remember him? Why me years later I still remember well preserved and throw these pictures in my bathtub with the cables of our computers.
